I had fallen out of love: a post by Kate Motaung
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In October 2015, I pulled open the glass door and stepped into my first ever writing conference.
The only soul I knew in the sea of mingling people was my acquisitions editor, who I had met once at Panera. I made a beeline for his familiar face and locked into conversation.
The theme that year was “Awaken Your Wonder.” After soaking up the amazing breakout and keynote sessions, my wonder was sufficiently awakened. I floated home on a cloud of blissful wonder over the world of writing and all of its glorious possibilities.
Fast forward one year, and the scene is much different. In the span of 12 months, I signed a book contract; signed with an agent; spent five months revising my memoir manuscript; registered a writing, editing and virtual assistance business; and started working full-time from home for eleven different clients.
I strolled through those glass doors at the 2016 Breathe conference with a writing friend by my side and immediately recognized at least a dozen faces.
What a difference a year can make, right?
But in the process of doing, doing, doing for a year straight – of setting goals, meeting deadlines, creating web content, strategizing marketing plans – I had lost the wonder of it all. I had forgotten to celebrate story. Without realizing it, I had fallen out of love.
I sat in the auditorium listening to James Scott Bell breathe new life into my tired heart:
“Whenever you write, wherever you write—write like you’re in love.”
Yes. That’s what I want to remember. That’s what I want to feel again.
As he closed his moving keynote speech, I felt as if he was pointing his words directly at me:
“Fall in love with the craft. Fall in love with your gift of writing.”
That’s what I’ve been missing these past few months. I truly love the craft. I love the gift. I love my job. But the pressures of commercial work had subtly drained the passion right out of my tank.
Thank you, Mr. Bell, for filling it up again.
Kate Motaung grew up on the shores of Lake Michigan before spending ten years in Cape Town, South Africa. She and her South African husband have three children. Kate is the author of the ebook, Letters to Grief, hosts the Five Minute Friday blog link-up, and has contributed to several other online publications. She blogs at Heading Home and can be found on Twitter @k8motaung or on Facebook. Kate owns Refine Services, LLC, a writing, editing and virtual assistance business. She is represented by Credo Communications, and her memoir is forthcoming from Discovery House.