What Keeps Me Going by Allison Zeigler
What keeps me going? Why do I write?
That is something I have been honestly asking myself, lately.
Why write when my job does not require my writing degree?
Why bother when I already work eight hours every day, forty hours a week?
Why force myself when after dinner I’m tired and no one in the world, except a few writing friends, would care if I ever wrote another word of my novel manuscript that is taking me so long to write?
Some nights, some weeks, I’m not sure of the answer. Life would certainly be easier if I didn’t write. There wouldn’t be the guilt of not writing. There wouldn’t be those college loan payments for my creative writing degree. There wouldn’t be this constant thumping in my soul.
But see, there’s this story in my heart. Stories, actually, that accumulate in my brain faster than I can write them. They aren’t just stories, but stories that I feel the need to share, that I think God wants me to write to share about Him and His gospel. And there’s this need of mine to create and express and feel that can only be satisfied when I write.
That is why I write. That is what motivates me. It is what gnaws at me when I give into my tiredness and watch a movie instead of working on my novel. It is why I will slowly but surely keep writing even when I hate every word I have written. It is the drive that fades but never dies.
I write because I can’t not write.
Bio: Allison Zeigler recently graduated from Cornerstone University with a B.A. in Creative Writing. Some of her favorite things include reading and writing stories, hiking New England mountains, singing, and ice skating. She is currently working on her first novel manuscript. You can find her on her blog thetruthinseaglass.blogspot.com.